It's been a long time, I shouldn't have left you... without a fresh new idea to accept you :) But if you want to catch up to Mindbender's life,
peep me on the latest hot new digital crack that everyone been smokin' on every day... you know the one!!!
MINDBENDER SUPREME ON FACEBOOK!
also, this wonderful thing happened recently, and I can't thank Nardwuar enough for it :)
MINDBENDER MUSIC ON NARDWUAR! DOOT DOOT!!!!
I also did an interview with Maestro Fresh Wes for Toronto Is Awesome! This is another dream come true, word up!
MINDBENDER INTERVIEW WITH MAESTRO FRESH WES!!!
And I got a new manager! Frank of Souled Out Ent. is the man that I'm gonna make world history with! He gave me the album title "Relationship Therapy"... which will be like
an album version of this:
The Deepest Confession of Mindbender (so far):
For the past few months, I wondered why I'm more unlucky in finding love and sex in Toronto than karma and logic says I should be. People say I'm a very kind person
(and they are 99.1% right). No women have publicly confessed to hating my guts (I'm sure some do, though! LOL!) And I've been a respectful gentleman and a pretty
dedicated friend to all the ladies in my life. (Except that girl Christine in Grade 3 who kicked me in the balls. WE HAD TO FIGHT, LOL!) Besides her, I go to sleep at night
feeling pretty secure that I have been very lovely to women, and that I'm part of the solution, not the problem with men in the insane world of relationships today.
So WHY has it been so difficult for Addi to find someone to be with?
I *finally* realized it yesterday: IT IS BECAUSE I DO NOT HAVE THE SAME ~VALUES~ AS MOST OF THE WOMEN IN TORONTO. NOT SEXUALLY -OR- SPIRITUALLY.
The value system of your regular Toronto woman is sooo FAR apart from my heart, mind and soul, that there is almost NO way we will connect, even if we are attracted to
each other. Most Toronto women value showing patience over sharing passion (and if both patience and passion is irrational, most choose irrational patience... aka FEAR.)
Most Toronto women value the traditional dating structure over exploring spontaneous intimacy adventures. Most Toronto women justify their fears and reinforce their
mistrust more than they justify their love and reinforce their hope. Most Toronto women would rather not risk anything emotionally to maintain the neutrality they are lost in,
rather than make a decision -today- to offer someone a new part of their heart. And I realize that my values are more like a love-obsessed celebrity, a free-spirited
entertainer, even an erotic film star, more than your average Toronto man. I love freedom and fearlessness, and honestly, how many Toronto women do you see on a daily
basis that you can say are living free and fearless?
I don't mean to stereotype Toronto women. EVERYONE is capable of growing the very moment they choose to evolve their mind and/or heart. And I am so sincere about
doing this Relationship Therapy work while I'm alive on earth, and living in Toronto has taught me SO MUCH ABOUT FEAR, AND HOW PEOPLE HERE VALUE -FEAR-
The more you fear, the more you can be afraid of.
The more you love, the more you things you can be lovely to.
I try to start new relationships EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE.
I meet people all the time. I say "Hi! Nice to meet you!" And then share thoughts and energy. I often say "let's continue this connection". And almost EVERY DAY I encounter
a woman who decides to embrace fear over hope, or even chemistry and attraction.
So I'm going to make ART of of the FEAR of WOMEN from now on!
I have been making art out of the love of women for a long time, but for every rejection, every unreturned text, every disrespectful denial of my honesty, every fear-filled
failure on her part, I will create something beautiful with it. Every day I will use Toronto women's love or Toronto women's fear as my muse, my tools and my truth.
A song, a story, a drawing, a poem, a confessional short movie.
Something. Anything! I'm going to capture all the fear I can, and compare it to all the Love I am.
The working title for the project this will be on is "Relationship Therapy", and it's going to be the most personal, confessional, revealing, and sexual music I've made so far!
So now that I know what most Toronto women value the most, I'm going to invest in the hope that we can find some common ground and connect. Maybe we have entirely
different amounts of courage and maybe we have drastically different dreams... but if we both love Wu-Tang Clan or classic cartoons or walks in Nature, then we have a
chance to create something special!
***It's taken me many years, but I finally know that a relationship only stays together for as long as the people in it are honest about being connected by the same values in
life and love.***
Now who will Toronto bring into my heart today? :)
I also wrote this:
Remove TWO things from "porn", and ALL sex becomes sacred.
TO HELP HEAL THE IDEA OF SEX, A PERSON MUST DESTROY:
1) All the shame/blame/guilt around two (or more) people having consensual, safe, healthy, body-satisfying sex. It's mostly a transaction of energy, but sex has the highest
investment value out of all of life's necessary transactions/exchanges. Giving is a must.
2) All the power/control/abuse manipulations and disrespectful moments in the sex, that are not explicitly desired or requested. Power abuse is the primary negative force
taking the bliss from the joy of sex. Empowering people to allow themselves to inspire their fantasies to constantly remain intimate with their reality, as their heart and mind
wants to feel, is the most amazing ability in life.
~Remove all the self-shame or blame of others around the act of seeing sex or being sexual, and balance the power given and taken during the sexuality exchange
between two (or more) people, and... all that is left when the sex is done is a beautiful moment for the birth of a memory. No regrets, just honesty and happiness. ♥
This is how FAR I believe we are from our potential power:
"Egyptologists who know how sexual the high priestesses were, just cannot believe that a queen would have sex with anyone other than her husband-- like the good Jewish
Queens of the Bible. They seem to think that Cleopatra, who had sex with 100 Roman noblemen in one night, was unusual. The fact is, ALL priestesses, queens or
otherwise had sex with thousands of men. In ancient cultures with matriarch religions, sex was considered something ennobling and uplifting. Sex could take you closer to
the Gods rather than alienate you from god." ♥
Time to make history. Thank you for your patience, understanding and devotion.
THERE IS NOTHING IN THE UNIVERSE STRONGER THAN AN IDEA WHOSE TIME HAS COME.
Hell no, I can't slow down!
THE CRAZIEST MINDBENDER SONG OF ALL TIME IS HERE FOR YOU!!!
DOWNLOAD IT HERE AND NOW:
I'M AWESOME - THE FAN VIDEO!
The most motherfuckin' awesome Mindbender Supreme song of all time is now here! But we're taking this awesomeness to the next level, and we need YOU to help us do it! All you have to do is send us the most awesome moment you've ever seen or captured on YouTube, so we can make the craziest fuckin' artist/fan collaboration video of all time!! We are going to turn your video clips into a masterpiece of madness, and it won't be as awesome as it can be without YOU! So go find something awesome (nothing too violent, please) and send it in. After 3 weeks, we are going to take the most amazing pieces of your videos and blow your fuckin head off like awwww shit!
Submission deadline for all videos is on May 4th, when we begin selecting videos. We will be selecting the best pictures, images, and all-around most awesome shit as much as possible. This is a non-profit, community-based collaborative work, reflected by a creative commons license, therefore there will be no monetary compensation for any video contribution. There is nothing more valuable than being a part of some awesome art. And if yours is not selected, please don't be sad. We still think you're awesome!
I didn't like that "Fred Hampton" line since the first time I heard it.
SMARTEN UP, SHAWN
I need to BELIEVE.
Cause right now, I'm just pissed off at emptiness.
Peace and love, somehow
So is the road to heaven is paved with bad intentions?
YOU CAN LISTEN TO IT NOW :)
Thank you to everyone who came out in Hamilton! It was wonderful! Video to come soon.
The mixtape is being prepared. Last minute adjustments.
Thank you for your patience!
THE ONLY SONG THESE KINGS DID -NOT- PERFORM:
A SHAME. CAUSE THE SHOW WAS PRETTY DAMN GOOD.
EXCEPT FOR WHEN THEY ENDED THE SHOW OFF BY DOING 'N!GGAS IN PARIS' ~FIVE TIMES~ wtf
STILL, I LOVE YOU GUYS AND CAN'T WAIT TO LINK WITH YOU ONE DAY!
P.S. MAD LOVE TO GERALD AND KALMPLEX AND EVERYONE ELSE WHO I SAW THERE!!!
LOVE THAT NEVER QUITS... EVEN WHEN IT KNOWS IT CAN DO BETTER TOMORROW.
not that happy today.
justice didn't come in the mail.
i thought it was going to.
time to escape existence for a bit.
FTW don't ask me for shit.
time to transform.
no more mr. fucking nice guy.